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12 months ago already!

Thursday, April 1st, 2010

матраци12 months ago today I had a 6th sense; called my grandad asking him if ‘he were scared’, ‘not really’ he replied in a brave tone. Wishing him ‘all the best’ and saying ‘I will see you the other side’; which was peculiar of me to say such a thing. I think to this day I had subconsciously realised ‘the other side’ would not have been of the operation but of my own death in years to come :'(
Those were the last words we shared and bless him he thought I was Porl Joynes, so never knew how concerned I was! Been a hard 12 months trying to get over it but writing this has finally drawn my first true tear and lump in my throat :'( …Maybe speaking out like this is what I have been longing for.

Good night all, treasure every moment; you never do really know when you are going to lose the best things in life.

Smiling Men on Dune